May 18, 2021
Welp, thought I wouldn’t have to put anything down today - it was supposed to be uneventful. I don’t have any doctor appointments scheduled or anything. Should have known that’d blow up in my face.
My MRI results came back. I got a call from a scheduler at the hospital's women’s center. My lymph nodes were clear (praise the Lord), but I need to come in for another ultrasound. MRI showed another spot in my R. breast. Could be that the cancer’s spread. Could be that it’s another or different type of cancer. Could be unrelated to the cancer. The ultrasound will take a closer look at the spot and might require another biopsy.
Not what I was hoping for at all. I’m pissed just sitting here having to type this out. It feels like Day 1 of this shit all over again. I called Lisa (breast health navigator) to ask her about it, cried on the phone while she tried to explain this to me. I sent my oncologist a message asking if he could call me to talk through the MRI results and the need for an ultrasound. I’m scared what it might mean for my diagnosis, prognosis and treatment.
The follow-up ultrasound is scheduled for Thursday afternoon.
My next IVF check-in is tomorrow at 8am. I'm still hopeful for egg retrieval on Friday (5/21). I’ve never felt such a sense of urgency to get past that part of my treatment journey so that we can focus on actual treatment and get this f*cking cancer out of my body.
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