Wednesday, June 30, 2021
Felt pretty good today, thank you WBC shot. Red blood cells are pretty low after blood draw… not sure if I should be concerned by this or not. I do notice a bit of difficulty breathing and I seem to get tired faster. Worked a full day per-usual. Started feeling kind of worn down around the afternoon/evening.
Thursday, July 1, 2021
Woke up with a sore throat and knew something was off. Txt my oncologist with my symptoms and he sent in a script for an antibiotic right away. Stayed in bed for most of the day. Head cold symptoms and congestion progressed throughout the day. Ears were plugged up and intense head pressure by the end of day. Started sleeping upright in bed to help my breathing and airways with the pressure/pain.
Friday, July 2, 2021
Cold/flu/viral symptoms are the worst. I hate cancer. I hate being sick. I hate being sick with cancer while my body is fighting to recover from a round of chemo. This is the absolute worst. In bed basically all day.
Saturday, July 3, 2021
Happy (almost) 4th of July. Thought I might be feeling a bit better so we went out to Crestwick in the afternoon/evening so Macy could ride in the parade and we hung out with family and cousins. Enjoyed a BBQ dinner and then headed home. Felt pretty crummy by the time we got home and knew I was in for a rough night. Continued with sleeping upright.
Sunday, July 4, 2021
I had hoped we'd be going to Champaign to celebrate the holiday with my family but I will be staying in bed for most of the day instead. This disappointment led to a pretty big breakdown. I had told Cory to take Macy to the park, to get out of the house and enjoy the day instead of staying inside as I wallow in my self-pity. When they were out I just broke down and threw a fit, screaming, crying, yelling at God for the first time in all of this. I hate that cancer is taking away the fun moments, holidays, memories - from my family and I. But my tantrum came as quickly as it went. I felt God calming my heart, reminding me that this fit was only going to make me sicker, and settling my aching soul. Breathing is still a struggle and my head pressure is out of control, the tantrum certainly didn't help.
Monday, July 5, 2021
Woke up feeling a bit better (praise the Lord). Decided to make the most of our last day of the holiday weekend, after a weekend full of bed rest, pity parties, tons of Kleenex and snot. So Cory went and scoured the town to find an inflatable pool for us to enjoy with Macy. He ended up coming home with 4 inflatable water toy options - one wicked awesome large inflatable sports themed pool, one regular ol’ kiddie pool, one splash pad and another splash “blob.”
This is the BEST day ever. Macy has loved playing in the water. We spent almost the entire day outside in the shade, enjoying the warm weather, lounging in the pool. I will remember this day fondly for the rest of my life.
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