Welp, just like clockwork, my BC survivor friends had told me that around the 2wk mark their hair started falling out and sure enough… the time has come, and I am so not ready. But I don’t really have a choice in the matter, it’s time to prepare my heart.
I was getting ready for my chemo appointment this morning and noticed it first in the shower. And then when I was drying and styling my hair, it just came out in strands clasped between my straightener's tongs. I honestly thought I’d be more upset, or have some kind of dramatic reaction to the hair loss in the moment. I haven’t had that yet, I’m sure it’s coming, or I’m suppressing it and it will rear its ugly head when I least expect it (yay). But for now, it’s just the next shitty thing to come in this all around crap sandwich.
Chemo today went fine, I felt more prepared, less completely terrified. It was a lot less busy compared to last round that welcomed the overflow of Labor Day weekend patients that had been pushed onto my day. So things felt like they went smoother, quicker. My nurse today was Gina, she was so sweet. I was in at 8:30 and heading home around 1:20pm. We grabbed some Steak 'n Shake on the way home because I was hungry and felt up to eating.
But by the time I got home things had turned. My legs and arms felt tingly and heavy. I felt like I was moving in slow motion. I just felt really tired and rundown. So I crawled into bed and tried to rest, hoping to save up as much energy as I could to use with Macy when she got home from daycare.
When Macy got home she was in a snuggling mood, it was the best. She just lay in my arms and we watched some TV and just enjoyed that time together. Thank you God for these moments of peace.
Our family friend, Anna Lee, brought over some delicious chicken noodle soup and crusty bread - just what I needed tonight. We all enjoyed it, maybe Macy most of all! And after bath time I read her a bedtime story and we did our song and prayers and put her down for bed. My bedtime followed shortly after that.
Let the sun set on round 2. We’re a quarter of the way through my chemotherapy and 50% done with the AC portion of my treatments (what some might consider to be the hardest of the chemo therapies) so yay! Today is a day to celebrate .
Side-note: My sisters and sisters-in-law are the most amazing, supportive women and I could not survive this fight without them. They sent me this video during my treatment session and I cried like a baby and didn’t care who saw. Thank you guys, I love you all so much!
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